Poem: One Day Maybe

Six years old
In my mind I'm stuck alone and cold
Say you understand
All that was lost at a monsters hand
Say it will be okay
But it still lives with me even to this day
I'm now twenty one
Still trying to win this battle that can't be won
A ghost creeping up on me
Clouding the happiness I deserve to see
Pulling me back into the past
Reliving the memories I wish didn't last

One day, maybe,
These memories will leave me
I need a voice
Its my choice
To tell my story
To let me be free
So that I can live this life without
A single doubt

But I'm being held back
Afraid of being put under attack
For telling the truth
About all that happened in my youth
I'm older but I'm still fragile
I'll get stronger and become someones idol

- Stacey xo

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Poem: 21

Now that I am turning 21
In some ways my life has just begun
Born on 9th November 1993
Who thought I would become the woman I've turned out to be

Fought a battle since I was six years old
Only just found the courage to tell a story I never thought would be told
I have a loving family forever supporting me
Encouraging me to be the best I can be
I have a beautiful fiancée
Who I will love eternally
I may not have had the easiest path to get here
I may have played most of it by ear
But I know I can look back on my past 21 years
Knowing I have worked hard to get here, blood, sweat and tears
Facing many of my fears
Shedding a few tears
Cherishing moments and memories with friends and family
Things I can look back on quite happily

Moved out of my family home
Grown up and created my own
Found a love I never thought I would experience
Finally found my real independence

Looking back there are so many things I am proud of
Looking around me there are so many people that I love
Looking into the future
It's looking like an adventure
Letting go of the past, but it's still travelling with me
Ready to write the next part of my life for everyone to see
Ready to see where this journey will take me
Ready to travel with my friends and family



- Stacey xo

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Poem: I Want To Live My Life As I Should

I write how I feel down

Afraid that the words will come alive if I say them out loud

Some days I feel so alone

But how do I feel alone when my secret is now known

To the outside world it looked like you cared

But really all you did was make a little girl so very scared

Taking away the innocence of her childhood

Before she even really understood

I'm older and wiser now

But even still I can't understand how

You could do the things you did to me

Preventing a child from living her life carefree

I won't let you hold me back

Even if I face my triggers and have another panic attack

I want to live my life as I should

I want to live my life like everyone else would

- Stacey xo

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