Showing posts with label Lesbian. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lesbian. Show all posts

Monday, 8 December 2014

Christmas is Coming: Vlogmas Day 7

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Katie-Jo and I are vlogging everyday in the run upto Christmas here is day 2 of Vlogmas. Don't forget to subscribe to our YouTube channel (HERE) and come back tomorrow for day 3!

- Stacey xo


Christmas is Coming: Vlogmas Day 6

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Katie-Jo and I are vlogging everyday in the run upto Christmas here is day 2 of Vlogmas. Don't forget to subscribe to our YouTube channel (HERE) and come back tomorrow for day 3!

- Stacey xo


Christmas is Coming: Vlogmas Day 5

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Katie-Jo and I are vlogging everyday in the run upto Christmas here is day 2 of Vlogmas. Don't forget to subscribe to our YouTube channel (HERE) and come back tomorrow for day 3!

- Stacey xo


Christmas is Coming: Vlogmas Day 4

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Katie-Jo and I are vlogging everyday in the run upto Christmas here is day 2 of Vlogmas. Don't forget to subscribe to our YouTube channel (HERE) and come back tomorrow for day 3!

- Stacey xo


Christmas is Coming: Vlogmas Day 3

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Katie-Jo and I are vlogging everyday in the run upto Christmas here is day 2 of Vlogmas. Don't forget to subscribe to our YouTube channel (HERE) and come back tomorrow for day 3!

- Stacey xo


Thursday, 4 December 2014

Christmas is Coming: Vlogmas Day 2

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Katie-Jo and I are vlogging everyday in the run upto Christmas here is day 2 of Vlogmas. Don't forget to subscribe to our YouTube channel (HERE) and come back tomorrow for day 3!

- Stacey xo


Monday, 1 December 2014

Vlog: 29th November 2014: Katie-Jo's Big Bad Mood

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It's the start of vlogmas today, so in preparation for a month of vlogs  thought I would spend the day editing some old footage! Come back tomorrow for the first instalment of vlogmas.

- Stacey xo

Monday, 24 November 2014

Vlog: Hangover Day

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Don't forget to subscribe to mine and Katie-Jo's YouTube channel (HERE)! We will also be joining in with Vlogmas so make sure you head over to our channel during December to see what we are up to in the run up to Christmas.

- Stacey xo


Vlog: Surprise for you. Surprise for Me

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Please do go over to mine and Katie-Jo's YouTube channel (HERE) and subscribe to keep upto date with what we are up to. Especially as we will be participating in Vlogmas which will mean a new video everyday in the run up to Christmas (1st to 24th December).
- Stacey xo

Sunday, 9 November 2014

Poem: 21

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Now that I am turning 21
In some ways my life has just begun
Born on 9th November 1993
Who thought I would become the woman I've turned out to be

Fought a battle since I was six years old
Only just found the courage to tell a story I never thought would be told
I have a loving family forever supporting me
Encouraging me to be the best I can be
I have a beautiful fiancée
Who I will love eternally
I may not have had the easiest path to get here
I may have played most of it by ear
But I know I can look back on my past 21 years
Knowing I have worked hard to get here, blood, sweat and tears
Facing many of my fears
Shedding a few tears
Cherishing moments and memories with friends and family
Things I can look back on quite happily

Moved out of my family home
Grown up and created my own
Found a love I never thought I would experience
Finally found my real independence

Looking back there are so many things I am proud of
Looking around me there are so many people that I love
Looking into the future
It's looking like an adventure
Letting go of the past, but it's still travelling with me
Ready to write the next part of my life for everyone to see
Ready to see where this journey will take me
Ready to travel with my friends and family



- Stacey xo

Saturday, 20 September 2014

Video: The Girlfriend Tag

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- Stacey xo

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Friday, 19 September 2014

Video: A Night in with Kopparberg

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- Stacey xo

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Friday, 1 August 2014

Life: Our Engagement Party

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On the 6th June 2014 Clare (Katie-Jo's Mum) organised an engagement party for us in Cardiff. My Mum, Dad, brother and sister came up from Cambridge. It was such a wicked night. The video above is some of the video from the night.

- Stacey xo

Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Life: My Little Love Story

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I've mentioned Katie-Jo quite a bit on my blog now so I thought it was about time I introduced her properly. We met on the 16th September 2013 in our first year of university. Her room was opposite mine in our own little corridor in our shared house.

I remember her standing in my door way looking incredible wearing a pair of white jeans on the first or second night of freshers. I think I have most certainly 'fancied' her since then and if not I have definitely found her incredibly attractive since then. We spent quite a lot of freshers together, I remember one night when we were sat in the kitchen for hours, another night when I pretended to be a spacewoman with a bin on my head planking on the floor resulting in me cutting my chin open.

We gradually went everywhere together even resulting in me going back to Cardiff with her one weekend to see her family. I think I've pretty much been to Cardiff with her every time since. Minus last Christmas, which felt like we were apart forever!

I looked after her when she was ill, she was always there when I needed someone to talk to, we even ended up sleeping in each other beds because we would just fall asleep talking or watching films.

It was weird when we ended up having to go back home for the summer, I felt like a part of me was missing. I ended up going to Cardiff for Katie-Jo's birthday - yet again she looked incredible! We even planned a spur of the moment weekend the week before we were due to move back to Bournemouth for Cardiff Pride and again I ended up staying with her. Saying goodbye to each other after Pride was weird, neither of us seemed to want to do it. Where as we'd normally be making fun of each other we could barely speak to each other.

By the end of my weekend in Cardiff for Pride I couldn't wait to move back to Bournemouth. I had always found her attractive but no matter how many people told us 'we should be together' or 'we would make a good couple' we were both adamant that we were just friends. It wasn't until I saw her car come around the corner, she was late, as usual, that I knew there was definitely something more between us, there had always been 'moments' when I thought what if, but always shook them off thinking that it would ruin the amazing friendship we had.

When we moved into our new house in Bournemouth Katie-Jo started her new job straight away and quite honestly I felt like a lost puppy. I didn't know what to do with myself as the previous year (last year) we had spent basically all day every day together.

On the 7th October 2013 we had had a few drinks and as alcohol does it makes you a little bit more confident. I knew I really 'liked' Katie-Jo but wasn't entirely sure that she felt the same so I kept holding her hand and seeing if I could get any sense of her feeling the same, which I definitely did when she kissed me! We carried on kissing practically all night. Before we went to sleep I remember her asking me 'What's going to happen in the morning' and I replied with 'I'll kiss you' and true to my word the next morning I did exactly that. However we cooled things off until the 9th October 2013 and we have been together ever since then!



On the 17th April 2014 I decided to propose to Katie-Jo. I had been planning it for a while but I couldn't decide when to actually ask her. I had everything to do it so when I went to pick up the ring I got way too excited and decided to do it that day. I was so scared that she would say no I spent ages on the phone to my Mum. I asked her Mum's permission to make sure that it was okay. I had even let her best friend in on it when we visited her in London. I spent ages decorating the living room with ballons and petals, I had had a banner made, I went to the florist and bought her some flowers (a very daunting process when the florist asked me what I was looking for seeing as I have no idea about flowers!), I roped in one of our housemates to help me blow up some balloons. I even hid a camera in the room to be able to capture it. I wanted it to be special and I knew (because she had specifically told me that she didn't want anyone else there) that it had to be somewhere just the two of us - so where better than the place than where we had our first kiss!



On Friday the 1st August we will be moving into our first house together, just the two of us, and I can't wait. I'm really looking forward to seeing where she grew up properly, being able to see her family, and meeting new people.

I can't wait for our future together and what it holds - going on holidays together, being able to spend Christmas together, getting married, having kids!

- Stacey xo


Wednesday, 9 July 2014

Life: What A Year

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Looking back upon this year I can safely say that I, as a person, have come a very long way since September. In some ways I feel as though I am a different person to the one who left Bournemouth to return back to Cambridge at the beginning of last summer. I feel relaxed, comfortable in my own skin and a million times happier. I feel as though I have achieved and overcome things that I didn't think was ever even possible.I can say this year has been one hell of a roller coaster!

Some of the people who know me personally will know that since September I have battled through trying to prosecute the person who sexually abused me from the age of 6 up until I was 19 years old. As part of this I have battled exhaustion, depression and anxiety. I still have days when the anxiety and depression appear into my life but I am coming out the other side of it and learning how to deal with it. I wasn't able to hear the guilty verdict I was hoping to hear but the person who abused me did confess the things he did to me to several other people before taking his own life.

I also 'came out' to all of my friends and family after hiding the fact that I'm gay. I have also found the most amazing girlfriend, partner, fiance, best friend in Katie-Jo - who happened to be my housemate last year, that I could ever ask for. Ever since I confided in her about the sexual abuse last year she has been a rock for me. She's been supportive, encouraging, thoughtful, loving, kind, caring, everything I could have possibly needed. I really couldn't ask for anything more from her, she really is the better half of me. I really believe that without her I wouldn't have found it in me to tell my parents about the sexual abuse I had been through or gone to the police last September. I really can't wait for the rest of our future together and I know that after the year we have had and the things we have faced together we can face anything together.

It's crazy to think that my second and final year on my foundation degree course in Bournemouth is complete especially after contemplating leaving several times. It's crazy to think in a month I will be leaving the place that has been a home, an escape, and one hell of an adventure. I have learnt so much from the people I have met in Bournemouth, I know there are people I will keep in touch with for the rest of my life and there are others who will stay with this chapter of it but they have all helped to make it a very special time of my life.

While this year has quite possibly been one of the hardest I have ever faced with the video interviews, counselling, exhaustion, depression, anxiety and flashbacks I can safely say that I have come out of the other side of it all.

I am really looking forward to moving to Cardiff with my better half and starting the next chapter of our lives together. Lets hope the next year is a better one.


What a journey!

- Stacey xo

Wednesday, 2 July 2014

Poem: Real Love

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I might only be twenty
But that doesn't mean
I don't know what's truly real love

We could spend every second of our lives together
But I'll still wish those seconds could last forever
I could be holding her close to me
But that doesn't mean
I don't wish she was even closer

It's like a connection fuelled by electricity
Connecting her to me
Invisible for anyone else to see



- Stacey xo

Wednesday, 19 February 2014

Poem: I am Gay

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I am gay
But what am I truly trying to say
Am I asking for your acceptance
Or am I ready to experience your resistance to my existence

I was all to willing to live my life as a lie
All too scared to see my own mother cry
All too afraid that my own father would be ashamed of me
That my family wouldn't understand the person I am meant to be

But I guess I am lucky when it comes to my family
Because they say they're proud of me
But what are they actually proud of
They shouldn't have to be proud that I can openly love

I shouldn't feel as though my sexuality
Means that there is something wrong with my personality
Nor should I feel as though the love I have for another is filled with immorality
I shouldn't look a stranger in the eye and feel as though I have an abnormality

Why should you pity me for a love that makes me feel as though I belong
I don't think I could ever understand why you see it as being so wrong

Isn't true love, really true love when you wake up and think this is fate
So why are you telling me that this is just a phase and that I need to wait
Why when you don't even know me are your words filled with so much hate
When all I want to do is take the one I love out on a date

We're taught not to be prejudice
To consider each others feeling and not be too negative
We're taught that we shouldn't judge someone on their appearance
So why should my sexuality make a difference

I am gay
But it isn't something I should have to state or say
I shouldn't have to stand up and shout
Hi, I'm out



- Stacey xo

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Sunday, 16 February 2014

Poem: My First Real Love

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My girlfriend is the greatest gift I could have been given
Having her by my side has made me more driven
Knowing that she is my first real love
Something, someone I could never let go of

I thought I had been in love before
But between me and her we have something a lot more
It was so easy to say I was in love before when I had nothing to compare it too
But these feelings I have for her are completely new

She is my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes
When we kiss I still get butterflies
When I hold her in my arms
I want to be able to protect her from all harm

She has given me back a feeling I haven't had in quite a while
The feeling of being worth something not only to her but to myself too
It's a feeling that's so old to most but to me its so new

My girlfriend, my best friend
The one to make my broken heart mend
My beginning, my middle
My first real love I never want to end


- Stacey xo

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Saturday, 15 February 2014

Its Okay To Be Gay

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1hlCEIUATzg&feature=youtube_gdata_player - Ellen Page

I don't often openly talk about my sexuality, but this is so true. I am incredibly lucky to have such amazing and supportive family and friends who have made me comfortable enough to be able to be myself. It took me a long time to be able to feel comfortable to feel that I could be openly gay, all because of being too aware of how other people perceive you and how they can treat you and make you feel.

Being able to love and be loved by another person is an incredible experience regardless of whether they are the same sex as you and no one should feel ashamed of this. I think that everyone should be able to experience loving another person and being loved by another person without feeling as though they should hide their feelings. Everyone should feel comfortable enough to be able to express their love for another person without feeling as though its wrong.

I am so lucky to have my girlfriend - one of the most kind, caring, supportive and loving people I know. I'm even luckier to be able to not feel the need to hide our relationship as I know so many people do. Its incredible to know that my girlfriend is my best friend, my present and future.

I hope that it continues to get easier for people to 'come out' as I know for so many people this is such a difficult step and so many people as so apprehensive of how their families and friends will react. Not only this but I hope that people continue to be supportive of those who aren't straight and fit the 'norm' as its that support that makes people feel as though they can be themselves and not hide their true self and be someone that their not.  Particularly as each person has so much to give no one should feel the need to hide themselves.

I hope that others can see as I have learnt that its okay to be gay and that you don't need to pretend to be someone you're not.

- Stacey xo