Poem: Never Been So Wrong

Watching the waves crash at the shore
My mind thinks back to when you called me a whore
I did nothing wrong
Apart from wishing to belong
I did everything you asked of me
Even though I could see
How wrong it would be
I always knew that it would surface
But I just didn't realise it would make me feel this worthless

I put my trust in you
And know I have found out exactly what you could do
I never thought that you were capable of this
But I guess I was fooled by your kiss
I thought that with you I could have it all
I never expected that kind of high would be followed by this sort of low
It's strange how I never thought I could get something this wrong
Especially after so long




- Esjae xo

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Poem: I Had Him First

I might not have a lot of money

And I might just be another thing for you to roll your eyes at hunny

At least I'm not a drama queen, playing at being an actress

Known for the things I do between the sheets, on the mattress

Maybe it's time for you to keep in mind
That you don't always get to keep what you find
I'm not going to start throwing around accusations and calling you names
But I'm making it clear, I won't be playing any games
Just because you hate me
Doesn't mean you get to take the first thing your eyes see
They say karma's a bitch, so I guess you've found your match
Didn't your mummy ever tell you it's rude to snatch
See I had him first
You might have your act fully rehearsed
Don't worry you might get your debut performance today
But I'll get my revenge one day some way



- Esjae

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Poem: You Need To Walk Away

 You Need To Walk Away

I'm trying so hard to find the power your love gave to me

But if you were here you would see
That I'm lost and turning into someone I shouldn't be
I want to come out strong
But right now I'm not sure where I belong
With you I always knew where I stood
You were the one who always understood

I want you to come back to me

But I know for you that we aren't meant to be
You need to do what is right for you
And do the things you need to do
I need to respect the decisions you make
Even if my heart will break

You need to walk away

But just so you know,
Forever in my heart you will stay



- Esjae x

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Poem: Spiralling Love

Love, hate, passion and fate
One minute you’re walking tall
The next you’re falling beyond all control
If it wasn’t for the glint in your eyes
That shot me to the skies
My heart wouldn’t be breaking
And this smile I wouldn’t be faking
I just wish I was the one on your mind at night
And during the day we didn’t fight
Saying things we didn’t mean
Believing what everyone else has seen
I know I’ve had my chance
But really you shouldn’t have shot me that glance
Do you know the feelings I have inside when you say my name?
How can you play with my heart like it’s a game?
Boy do you have no shame
Following my every step
With love you don’t have time to prep

 

What do you think?

-Esjae x

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Poem: Sorry For Breaking It To You This Way

I never asked to fall in love
I’d already given up
Don’t need an angel from above
I’m all out of luck
I’m not willing to try
It will only be a waste of time
Sorry if it’s not what you what you want to hear
But I just don’t want you near
I’m sorry for breaking it to you in this way
But there wasn’t anything else for me to say
There’s not much either of us could do
I just don’t love you

What do you think of this one?

-Esjae x

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Poem: New Directions

I know things won’t change
So I guess for now its good bye
One day we’ll meet again
Please don’t blame yourself
Especially as this is something I have to do
For some this may seem an easy option
But for me I can’t believe that it’s come to this

I’ll say good bye for now
As I don’t want to walk away forever
One day you’ll understand
Our love isn’t ending
It’s just taking a new direction
Now we’ll be strong, moving on
Let’s just go on in our different directions

What do you think?

-Esjae x

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