Poem: When I Don’t Belong

I know when I don't belong
That's why right now I'm contemplating getting gone
I don't want to be here
If you don't want me near
I've always tried to do my best by you
All I ever wanted was appreciation for the things I do

Instead you throw it back in my face
Telling me that I don't belong in this place
That I mean nothing to you and I'm just a waste of space

I don't need telling twice
I've tried playing nice
Even after you pushed me away
I still tried to stay
Maybe it was the wrong thing to do
But all I wanted to was be there for you
And in my head I just knew
That you wouldn't be able to do it alone
I've left, I've gone, but if you need me just pick up the phone
It's not that I don't care
You just made me feel like I didn't belong there

I hope one day you'll see
That you'll always mean something to me

 

- Esjae xo

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Poem: Never Been So Wrong

Watching the waves crash at the shore
My mind thinks back to when you called me a whore
I did nothing wrong
Apart from wishing to belong
I did everything you asked of me
Even though I could see
How wrong it would be
I always knew that it would surface
But I just didn't realise it would make me feel this worthless

I put my trust in you
And know I have found out exactly what you could do
I never thought that you were capable of this
But I guess I was fooled by your kiss
I thought that with you I could have it all
I never expected that kind of high would be followed by this sort of low
It's strange how I never thought I could get something this wrong
Especially after so long




- Esjae xo

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Poem: I Had Him First

I might not have a lot of money

And I might just be another thing for you to roll your eyes at hunny

At least I'm not a drama queen, playing at being an actress

Known for the things I do between the sheets, on the mattress

Maybe it's time for you to keep in mind
That you don't always get to keep what you find
I'm not going to start throwing around accusations and calling you names
But I'm making it clear, I won't be playing any games
Just because you hate me
Doesn't mean you get to take the first thing your eyes see
They say karma's a bitch, so I guess you've found your match
Didn't your mummy ever tell you it's rude to snatch
See I had him first
You might have your act fully rehearsed
Don't worry you might get your debut performance today
But I'll get my revenge one day some way



- Esjae

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Poem: You Need To Walk Away

 You Need To Walk Away

I'm trying so hard to find the power your love gave to me

But if you were here you would see
That I'm lost and turning into someone I shouldn't be
I want to come out strong
But right now I'm not sure where I belong
With you I always knew where I stood
You were the one who always understood

I want you to come back to me

But I know for you that we aren't meant to be
You need to do what is right for you
And do the things you need to do
I need to respect the decisions you make
Even if my heart will break

You need to walk away

But just so you know,
Forever in my heart you will stay



- Esjae x

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Poem: We’re Becoming To Be

I know I’m not perfect
But I do my best to get as close as I can
You say I don’t need to change
I see the doubt of you own words in your eyes
Our relationship used to be fine
I knew one hundred percent you were mine
But lately people made me question how we feel
And if our love is real
To them we can’t be
Anything more than average
But I thought we were perfect
And nothing less
It was only you I wanted to impress
People started talking
Then my mind started walking
Going round and round
Thinking about
All the little things you said
The looks you give the other girls
The distance you’re putting between you and me
Maybe it’s just me
Or what they’re saying we’re becoming to be

Tell me they’re wrong
And it’s in my heart you belong
Say things will always be perfect
Between you and me
Say there’s no need to question it
Because our hearts are a perfect fit
It all I want to hear from your lips
A comfortable silence
A little reassurance from you
Once in a while

What do you think?

- Esjae x

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Poem: I'm Living My Truth Without Your Lies

You think you know it all
You think you know me
But if I tell you the truth you would stop and stall
If you open your eyes then maybe you would see
That I'm not longer going to
Play your games
Pretend that to me you're being true
When really you have 101 different love flames
You maybe 'Mr Perfect'
But really you're 'Mr Disrespect'

You haven't got the right to say to me
Who I should be
When you have me confused with 'Miss Last Night'
It's too late for you to protest, to put up a fight
You lost that right
When you didn't pick up last night
I told you from the beginning
You thought you were winning, when all you were doing was sinning

No one will and has ever made a fool out of me
From now I'm living my truth without your lies
I'm walking out, and I won't be coming back, you'll see
There won't be anymore tears from these eyes

I'm stronger now that I've woken up to see who you really are
You just another Mr Want It All with a sports car
I'm no longer going to be 'Miss Day Time'
While you sneak off to see 'Miss Night Time'
You my think you know everything
But in reality you know nothing

What do you think?

- Esjae x

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Poem: The Best Is Yet To Come

A part of you is a part of me
And will always be
But now we’re through
We’ll walk our separate ways
It may take days
But in time you’ll see
The best is yet to come
I hope you understand
All is said and done
Walk with your held high
Because both of us know
How hard it is to say goodbye
With all the memories
And special places
In one of those new faces
You will find love
Another heart to treasure

 

What do you think?

-Esjae x

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