Early Christmas

Yesterday me and Katie-Jo decided we'd celebrate Christmas early together. It was a really good day! I woke up early and it felt like it took ages for her to wake up. Once Katie-Jo finally woke up she made me a cup of tea and then we went back to bed to open our presents. I was really spoilt, Katie-Jo...

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Entering 20 Years of Life… AKA My Birthday

  View Full Album Until this year I haven’t had one of those birthdays where you can look back and say ‘that was my best birthday yet.’ I was gutted on my 18th because I was ill, my other birthdays have been alright/good but nothing really happened that made them stand out… my birthday this...

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Bucket List

Places/ Landmarks I want to Visit:New YorkThe Statue of LibertyDubaiTower of PisaSan FranciscoVeniceNew ZealandNiagara FallsAustraliaThe Great WallThe Grand CanyonEiffel TowerDisney Land FloridaMadame TussaudsThe Wizarding World of Harry PotterWarner Bros Studio Tour London (The Making of Harry Potter)AuschwitzGolden Gate BridgeAfrican SafariSee the Northern LightsThings I Want To Do:Get a Tattoo ✔Pass...

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Me, Myself and I… And This Blog!

  How exciting, this is the first post on this blog... it's all shiny and new - maybe not shiny but definitely new! I thought I'd create a new blog to write about my new (not really) adult life - sharing is caring. I never considered being 18 as being an adult, I don't know why... Probably because...

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Speak to Me... Ways To Contact Me

There are several ways in which you can speak to me/ stalk my life:E-mail: esjae-official@hotmail.co.ukTwitter: http://www.twitter.com/stazzyhubbsYoutube: http://www.youtube.com/user/theofficialesjae Instagram: http://instagram.com/stazzyhubbsSnapchat: @stazzyhubbsCheck 'em out!- Stacey...

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Poem: Thinking of You Wondering If You're Thinking of Me

I'm sitting here staring out to the sea Thinking of you wondering if you're thinking of me Should I tell you how I feel Show you that love is really real I can feel it in every part of me If I could only make you see The true meaning you have to me I sit up all night thinking of you And all the little things you do If only you knew What you do When you're around I can't concentrate Something inside...

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Poem: What Difference Does It Make

People stop and look at me They don't understand what they see Instead the slot me into a stereotype But I like to think we're all different prototypes You might have already experienced what I'm about to But to me its all new This is my first and only chance at life So what difference should it make if I want a husband or wife I doesn't change that I'm just like you I eat the same foods I...

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Poem: Not For Your Entertainment

I've really been struggling to get back into writing poems, but I have finally written one today that I really like: Not For Your Entertainment You know my name not my story You see me fall down but you won't help, just simply ignore me Behind my eyes are the silent tears I want to cry But instead I'll wear a smile that's an innocent lie There are so many things I want to say But I'll save...

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Poem: No Matter

Okay, I've tried to write a poem all day and I've been getting frustrated at the fact I couldn't write anything I liked - this is what I have ended up with: No Matter No matter where I turn There is always something new I have to learn Sometimes I feel so alienated But then that makes me become even more motivated I want to prove to everyone that I can No matter which side of the fence they stand Whether...

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Life: Happy Results Day

It's crazy how this time last year I was one of the people getting my results to see if I had gotten into uni. I hope everyone got the grades they wanted and are able to go onto doing what they want to do. So much has changed for me in the past year all because I managed to scrape through the grades I needed for my A Levels to get to get me my place at uni. It has definitely been a year full of ups...

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Poem: Everyone's Prison

I thought I would have a go at writing a poem as I haven't done it in a while, here's what I came up with: Everyone's Prison Your mind is your own cell Constantly battling with your own personal hell A secret that you simply can't tell Putting up a front so that nobody knows The weakness that you can't afford to expose Trying to define yourself as a person when you have so many personalities Just...

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Life: Family Holiday Camping In Leiston

Every year my family goes camping, this year we took my Auntie and Cousin with us as well. My parents organised it whilst I was at uni and they decided on us going to Leiston, a place I have never heard of on the Suffolk coast. Check out the videos from my youtube channel and see what happened: - Esjae xo Blog: www.esjaeofficial.blogspot.com Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook:...

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Review: Between Friends by Amanda Cowen

Between Friends by Amanda Cowen Published March 2013 "If your looking for a fun, read this is sure one you will enjoy!" - Chris's Book Blog Emporium"Short and sweet story with a adorable HEA for the hero and heroine that I don't think you should pass up!" - Jelena's Book Blog"The chemistry between Ben and Megan were both funny during the preparations for Jessica's wedding to the most sweetest thing...

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Life: Race For Life Cambridge

Okay, I've neglected But I'm going to get back into writing here again and get you all up to speed with my life and get the rest of the blog up to date. At the beginning of the summer I decided to sign up for the 'Race for Life' in Cambridge after saying I was going to do it a few years ago. Then my Mum and Auntie said they were going to do it too. Originally I was going to run the 5 km but due to...

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Update: I'm Now on Bloglovin!

Follow my blog with Bloglovin - I have just joined the site so you can now follow it using this platform as well as any of the others that I have already set up! - Esjae...

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Life Badges: Crane Game

Whilst I was in Bournemouth during my first year of university I visited the arcade on the sea front quite regularly, during these visits I managed to win on the crane game quite a few times mainly TY cuddly toys. Although I would love to win a cuddle version of the Alien from Toy Story out of...

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Life Badges: Ballet

This badge doesn't have a very long or very interesting story to go with it, however I did learn ballet very briefly when I was very young. My Auntie Lisa is a ballet teacher so she gave me and my sister a few lessons when we were about 3 or years old. - Esjae xo Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook:...

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My View: Teens Exposed

Recently I had a 'run in' with a lad who though it was okay to post explicit photos of his ex girlfriend online as pay back for her cheating on him. I completely disagreed. Regardless of the gender I feel that it is never okay to share something that is meant to be so personal and private and make it completely public and place it somewhere where it will be available forever and could potentially...

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Youtube: Mum & Her Chair

My Mum makes me laugh so much sometimes, some of the things she does is unbelievable! - Esjae xo Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/theesjaeofficial Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/theofficialesjae Instagram: http://instagram.com/stazzyhubbs Snapchat: stazzyhubbs Scribd: http://www.scribd.com/esjaeofficia...

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Review: Honest: My Story So Far by Tulisa

Honest: My Story So Far by Tulisa Tulisa Contostavlos is one of the most talented and high-profile recording artists working in the UK today. She has three platinum N-Dubz albums, four MOBO awards, a groundbreaking drama series, two documentaries, a MIND award and an X Factor judge's win under her belt. Not bad for a girl who's not yet twenty-five. But this is not just a tale of glittering success....

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Review: The Rockstar's Daughter (The Treadwell Academy Novels) by Caitlyn Duffy

The Rockstar's Daughter (The Treadwell Academy Novels) by Caitlyn Duffy At the age of 15, Taylor Beauforte has only met her father twice in person. After all, he is the lead singer of a world-famous rock band, constantly on the cover of music magazines and giving interviews on MTV. He pays for Taylor to attend the Treadwell Academy, a prestigious boarding school in Massachusetts, and provides her...

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Youtube: Bowling George Style

George doesn't bowl the conventional way but still manages to get a spare! -Esjae xo Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/theesjaeofficial Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/theofficialesjae Instagram: http://instagram.com/stazzyhubbs Snapchat: stazzyhubbs Scribd: http://www.scribd.com/esjaeofficia...

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Youtube: Minstrel Challenge Round 2

Attempt two of 'The Minstrel Challenge' - this is what happens when me and Rachael (filming and pouring the minstrels) were really bored and had a packet of minstrels so came up with the minstrel challenge which I think was to see how many minstrels could be poured into my mouth - Esjae xo Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/theesjaeofficial Youtube:...

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Youtube: Minstrel Challenge Round 1

Attempt one of 'The Minstrel Challenge' - this is what happens when me and Rachael (filming and pouring the minstrels) were really bored and had a packet of minstrels so came up with the minstrel challenge which I think was to see how many minstrels could be poured into my mouth - Esjae xo Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/theesjaeofficial Youtube:...

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Youtube: Two Girls One Dance

My two best friends at uni. - Esjae xo Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/theesjaeofficial Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/theofficialesjae Instagram: http://instagram.com/stazzyhubbs Snapchat: stazzyhubbs Scribd: http://www.scribd.com/esjaeofficia...

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Youtube: I Fall Off The Bed

This is one of my favourite videos from my first year of uni.  - Esjae xo  Twitter: https://twitter.com/stazzyhubbs Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/theesjaeofficial Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/theofficialesjae Instagram: http://instagram.com/stazzyhubbs Snapchat: stazzyhubbs Scribd: http://www.scribd.com/esjaeoffic...

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Review: Girl 99 by Andy P Jones

Girl 99 by Andy P Jones William Fisher is on a mission to bring the total number of his sexual conquests up to 100.  During the course of his quest he sleeps with a colleague, a colleague of a friend, a friend of a friend, a friend of a friend’s wife, the estate agent selling his flat, and several more besides. Everything is going, if not well, then at least according to plan … and then Fisher...

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Review: Perfect Summer by Kailin Gow

Perfect Summer by Kailin Gow This was a great sequel to the first book but it would also make a great read for anyone who hasn't already read the first book. The characters as in the first book were relatable and also very believable. The overall plot is well written and enjoyable to read particularly as you become very involved in the characters lives. I would recommend this book for older teens...

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Review: Putting Boys on the Ledge by Stephanie Rowe

Putting Boys on the Ledge by Stephanie Rowe This was a nice easy read ideal for teenagers who do not read very much. Its the kind of book that you could quite happily read in one sitting as the plot flows so well. The characters were engaging and fun, some people may also find them and the plot to be relatable. Although the plot was relatively predictable this didn't draw away from the enjoyment...

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Life: I miss university

After tonight I have definitely decided that I miss uni. Its not even 9pm and I'm already sat in bed because there is nothing else to do. Well I could do some of my assignment that isn't due until September, but I have the whole summer to do it (famous last words).  I found this toaster...

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Poem: My Point Of View

I'm stuck in this nightmare Struggling to act like I don't care You got yourself into this mess I wish I could pretend that I couldn't careless I've tried helping you time and time again But there's no helping you It's not a question of if but when It's almost like you can't help the things you do Acting out like you have no clue Especially about how much your hurting everyone around you I wish...

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Reunited!

It's official! Me and Rachael have been reunited... it was a beautiful moment! Three weeks actually feel like forever...No word of a lie. Basically we have just done an all nighter to do our assignment that is due at 10am... I say we I mean me, Rach opted out of this assignment. Back to the beginning of the day (now in fact yesterday). I had the worst nights sleep, my body wanted to be alive but...

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Poem: Your Inner Wealth

Sometimes it's hard to be surrounded in positivity When all your feeling in your head is negativity Its like when your life is moving so fast and all you want is for it to slow down Longing for a little bit of simplicity Just to create a safer place for your mentality See some people spend all their time searching for money, fame and fortune So when they have something good its almost as if they've...

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Recommends: Jokshan Simpson - Mirrors Cover

It's 3am and I was scrolling through my youtube and came across this - the best cover of mirrors I have seen. Absolutely love it! - Esjae...

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HOME!

Bournemouth definitely feels like home, I have been back here for more than 24 hours now and it feels ridiculously good to be here! It took a while to unpack everything yesterday and get things sorted, I caught up with Ryan when I got back and Stefan was out. But there's only the 3 of us in our house...

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Poem: Just Get To Know Me

Just because I'm female Doesn't mean I believe everything ends just like a fairytale I see the news each night I hear the sirens attending another deadly fight I might be nineteen But that doesn't mean I live up to the stereotype I'm believed to be I'm my own person, I'm me Look at me from the outside, tell me what do you see I'm just another lost human being trying to follow my path in life But...

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Officially the best procrastinator!

There, I've said it! I can literally find anything to do to stop me from doing my work. Last night I had planned that today I would finish my assignment but somewhere between last night and this morning a part of me decided that wouldn't be happening.I have had a very (un)productive day looking through...

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Why am I so productive?!

So today has been one of those uber productive days when I have felt like I have completed so many things but really I have done nothing. Yes that's write I have ticked off a big fat zero of the many things filling my lovely non existent (that should really exist) to do list.I got out of bed stupidly...

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Easter so far!

I only have until Saturday until I return back to Bournemouth from Cambridge and I'm currently recovering from some sort of bug that I got yesterday which meant I wasn't allowed to go to work.So far my Easter holidays have been pretty crazy!On the first night back I went to the pub with my Mum, Tasha...

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Poem: What I’m Here To Do

I may never come first And I'm used to coming last But none of that matters to me Because all I really want to see Is you becoming what you set out to be I want to see you smile And I mean more that once in a while I don't want to see anymore tears running down your cheeks Even if you're feeling really down and incredibly weak Trust me, I know, you're stronger than you think...

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Poem: When I Don’t Belong

I know when I don't belong That's why right now I'm contemplating getting gone I don't want to be here If you don't want me near I've always tried to do my best by you All I ever wanted was appreciation for the things I do Instead you throw it back in my face Telling me that I don't belong in this place That I mean nothing to you and I'm just a waste of space I don't need telling...

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What has happened in life.

Well I haven't written anything on this blog since I actually moved in, what has happened since then.EVERYTHING.Quite literally, so much has happened. But at the same time it feels like not a lot has happened. Crazy really, just saying!Well freshers has quite obviously ended and I have been chucked...

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