Yesterday me and Katie-Jo decided we'd celebrate Christmas early together. It was a really good day!
I woke up early and it felt like it took ages for her to wake up. Once Katie-Jo finally woke up she made me a cup of tea and then we went back to bed to open our presents. I was really spoilt, Katie-Jo got me a ring, tickets to the Harry Potter Warner Bros Studio tour in London, a cuddly minion and a minion calendar! I love all my presents and I've been completely spoilt!
Katie-Jo made me breakfast. Which was really tasty. She thinks she cant really cook but she can!
We watched the Grinch whilst I made us a roast dinner. I ate so much but it was so good!
We finished the day watching the Holiday while having a drink.
It was really good to have an early Christmas together as we aren't able to spend the actual day together. I love spending time with her and I can't wait till next year when we can hopefully actually spend Christmas day together.
I can't wait to visit the Harry Potter studio tour next year.
Until this year I haven’t had one of those birthdays where you can look back and say ‘that was my best birthday yet.’ I was gutted on my 18th because I was ill, my other birthdays have been alright/good but nothing really happened that made them stand out… my birthday this year topped them all.
My birthday started on the 7th and didn’t finish until the 11th!
Katie-Jo surprised me on the Thursday with dinner at an Italian restaurant, then champagne on the beach and she also gave me my present. We had a really good evening and it was just really good to spend time together. – To be honest that would have been more than enough to celebrate my birthday!
On Friday me and Katie-Jo decorated the house with balloons and banners, ready for Rachael R, Annie and Amiee to arrive. Katie-Jo did more of the decorating and I did more directing. We went and picked Rachael up from the train station and went into ASDA then we tried to leave but the car park was jammed and so we ended up picking Annie & Aimee up at the same time. We all chilled out for a bit and had a few drinks.
Saturday was my actual birthday! It was a ridiculously wicked day. I started the day off by opening my card and presents from my family, then some balloons arrived from Katie-Jo and then she made me breakfast. Once the girls woke up they gave me cards and some chocolates. We all chilled out for a bit and then got ready to go and see Jessie J. We queued for Jessie J for an hour or so, which seemed like forever but was totally worth it because Jessie J was sick! We went and got McDonalds and then spent forever trying to find a taxi, when we finally found one we were basically half the way home, and the dude didn’t even take us all the way home! We met Rachael D at home and she gave me my present (a onesie and a cuddly Alien from Toy Story) we all had drinks and it ended up being a really wicked night.
On Sunday, Rachael left and we took Rachael to the train station. Me and Katie-Jo went to ASDA to get some stuff so that we could all have a roast dinner. We spent the rest of the day chilling out and I made a roast dinner for everyone… Which took a while to cook. We then finished the day off by playing Cardiff Monopoly.
Then on Monday, Annie and Aimee left and my new laptop arrived.
All in all it was a wicked weekend, and I really enjoyed it.
How exciting, this is the first post on this blog... it's all shiny and new - maybe not shiny but definitely new! I thought I'd create a new blog to write about my new (not really) adult life - sharing is caring. I never considered being 18 as being an adult, I don't know why... Probably because I was still a teenager I always saw becoming 20 as becoming an adult as it’s the start of a new decade and new responsibilities.
I am Stacey (that is my real name, in case you were wondering) and I have lived on this planet for 20 whole years - I miss being a teenager already, 20 feels old... too old. I have been 20 for 25 whole days and I already feel old - how is that even possible! I was born in Cambridge, UK and lived there for the majority of my life, well until last September - I have never really appreciated its history and why its famous until when I went back in June after being away at university for the year. I now live in Bournemouth and am currently battling to complete the second (and final) year of my foundation degree in Business and Management, I'm hoping to get on to the top up course next year. When I say I got to university people assume that I'm clever, I don't know why... I don't see myself as clever, in fact I know I'm not! Getting myself through my assignments is a massive battle, I always feel like I know absolutely nothing about the topic, I have basically zero concentration, I never know where to start and I get distracted far too easily. But I am getting there, slowly.
I have a weird obsession with star signs and horoscopes that not many people know about! I am a Scorpio it’s probably because I am so similar to my star sign and it weirds me out, it always fascinates me to see if other people have any of the attributes to their star sign. I just simply find it fascinating.
I have a (un)healthy addiction to several things. I’m not even joking when I say I eat ridiculous amounts of chocolate, I have no idea how I haven’t put on crazy amounts of weight – can quite happily just eat chocolate all day everyday (but then who couldn’t!). I own several onesies too many – they are far too comfortable not to wear them (the giraffe one is one of my favourites)! I spend nearly all my life attached to my phone or laptop, I’m probably seen as one of the most unsociable people in the world (well at least the county) this is as a result of my unhealthy addiction to the internet. I’m nearly always wearing a hat, snapbacks are my current favourite at the moment. I have an unhealthy love for Toy Story, it’s one (probably my most) favourite film of all time and if you know me personally and don’t know that by now you should be ashamed of yourself.
I have an awesome family who I know I can turn to with anything and everything. We’re like any family we wind each other up but at the end of the day we are always there for each other. I love them all to to pieces. My Mum is literally one of my best friends – I’m really lucky to have been able to have this kind of relationship with my Mum from quite a young age and I’ve always had a lot of respect for her and have always looked up to her, I moan about her at times – but she knows me on a whole other level compared to everyone else – I can talk to her about almost anything and she is one of ‘those’ people who I know I can always count on without fail. My relationship with my Dad is quite strong, it’s definitely become stronger as I’ve gotten older, I know I can always turn to him if I need him and I don’t just scream and shout at him like I used to – he’s one of the people I respect and he can fix almost anything and everything. When I was younger I didn’t always show my dad how much I appreciated him, and I pushed him away quite a bit and as I have gotten older I have recognised this and slowly tried to fix it. My parents, are incredibly supportive and have always supported me (as well as my brother and sister) without fail, they don’t really judge us and they guide us but don’t dictate to us which is something I have always respected and appreciated (even though I might not have always shown it). My (older) sister, Natasha, and (younger) brother, Aaron, are two of the people (other than my parents) I am most protective over in the world, I would hate for anything to happen to them, I have so many memories with them growing up and they probably don’t even really know how much they mean to me. Looking at the three of us you probably wouldn’t think we are that close, but I know I can always talk to my sister and turn to her for help if I need it and my brother is just as crazy as I am and we are so similar its weird. My whole family just means so much to me and I don’t know what I’d do without them
I have an incredibly awesome and beautiful girlfriend, who’s name is Kaite-Jo she happens to not only be my girlfriend but also one of my best friends which is the best combination because it means I can turn to her with everything and anything. Yes, I have a girlfriend, yes this also means I’m not ‘straight’ although no I’m not ‘gay’ – I’m somewhere in the middle probably a lot closer to being gay than being straight. But who cares! I’m ridiculously happy and really couldn’t imagine being with anyone else! We actually haven’t known each other for very long but it feels like I have known her forever and I definitely feel lucky to have her as part of my life and even luckier to be able to call her my girlfriend.
I have several really close friends, who help me through a lot and this is going to be hard because I don’t want to name every single person who has helped me out, but there are several people who I speak to regularly, know I can lean on and mean an awful lot to me. Basically what I am saying is if you actually know me and I don’t name you please don’t be offended. When I came to university I felt like I was drifting away from a lot of my friends, I was at a point in sixth form college where I was drifting in and out of friendship groups and didn’t really feel like I belonged anywhere. I’m 100 percent definitely not saying the friends I had a sixth form were rubbish, far from it – it’s just they didn’t always feel like they were the strongest friendships and ever since leaving sixth form we rarely speak. However (back to the original point), When I came to uni I met three girls (other than Katie-Jo) who I have become really close to, Rachael, Megan, and Josie. Megan was the first person on my course that I met, and we have stayed friends ever since. Rachael, I became close to during our first assignment last year and then gradually she basically moved into our house at the end of last year. I was gutted when she quit because we became so close although I know I can always chat to her if I need to. My friendship with Josie grew at the end of last year too we just ended up talking about our lives and I know if I need a chat I can turn to her.
Two of my closest friends which I have known for quite a while (almost feels like forever) are Bethany (Betherz) and Rachael Robinson (there are loads of them in the world!). Bethany moved to my secondary school and we clicked almost instantly, we could be dickheads together and we didn’t care, I’m almost always in stitches when we’re together – she also got me one of my jobs (what a top friend). Rachael I met when I was playing football but really got on when we worked together, she always makes me laugh and I know she’s got my back and I’ve got hers.
There are quite a few people I want to mention here thinking about it but I’m only going to mention one other person, Annie. I met her right at the end of last year she came and stayed with us in our shared house as she’s Katie-Jo’s friend although I ended up inviting her to stay when I was drunk, and we just got on. She’s one of those people who you feel like you’ve known for a really long time. She can also make me laugh with her stories about really random stuff.
The one thing I value most about all of my friends is that I can always have a laugh with them and they all know I don’t take myself too seriously and they don’t really care about it.
I can imagine this blog is going to basically me just chatting about a whole bunch of random stuff, as well as a place for me to vent and rant about stuff.
Anyways that’s it – if you want to know more about me, come back and check this blog out soon!
I'm sitting here staring out to the sea
Thinking of you wondering if you're thinking of me
Should I tell you how I feel
Show you that love is really real
I can feel it in every part of me
If I could only make you see
The true meaning you have to me
I sit up all night thinking of you
And all the little things you do
If only you knew
What you do
When you're around I can't concentrate
Something inside me is telling me its fate
But as soon as you're around
I lose all the courage I thought I'd found
I want to show you off to everyone
You give meaning to the words of my favourite love song
I'm holding back because you might think I'm wrong
But I know with you I belong
Okay, I've tried to write a poem all day and I've been getting frustrated at the fact I couldn't write anything I liked - this is what I have ended up with:
No Matter No matter where I turn There is always something new I have to learn Sometimes I feel so alienated But then that makes me become even more motivated I want to prove to everyone that I can No matter which side of the fence they stand Whether they have always believed in me Or if they have hated me and everything I've wanted to be I'll always want to see everyone else smile Before I can, as that's what makes me feel worthwhile I want to put everyone else first before me As its their happiness I want to see I've always believed, if you don't try you never will But even still If you try and can't succeed the first time Remember, 'Quitters don't win' before you resign
It's crazy how this time last year I was one of the people getting my results to see if I had gotten into uni. I hope everyone got the grades they wanted and are able to go onto doing what they want to do.
So much has changed for me in the past year all because I managed to scrape through the grades I needed for my A Levels to get to get me my place at uni. It has definitely been a year full of ups and downs and I have met some awesome people along the way.
I thought I would have a go at writing a poem as I haven't done it in a while, here's what I came up with:
Everyone's Prison
Your mind is your own cell Constantly battling with your own personal hell A secret that you simply can't tell Putting up a front so that nobody knows The weakness that you can't afford to expose Trying to define yourself as a person when you have so many personalities Just so that you can cover up all of your vulnerabilities When you are on your own You're shaking at the bars so that you are not alone Going around in circles trying to find a solution For this private personal execution You want to set yourself free So that you are able to be The person you have always known But have always been to afraid to show
Every year my family goes camping, this year we took my Auntie and Cousin with us as well. My parents organised it whilst I was at uni and they decided on us going to Leiston, a place I have never heard of on the Suffolk coast.
Check out the videos from my youtube channel and see what happened:
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(New Adult Contemporary) **Mature Content** Recommended for ages 17+ due to sexual content and language.
The only way to have a friend is to be one…especially between the sheets…
When neurotically challenged and unlucky in love Megan Daniels is propositioned by her life-long friend Ben Romano with a coin toss (heads, they sleep together, tails, they don’t) the night before they are about to attend a destination wedding, she drunkenly accepts his challenge. But when Megan wakes up the next morning with a bad hang-over and Ben in her bed, she is more than mortified. It isn’t until the tropical heat begins to ignite emotions Megan never believed or thought she could possibly have, when she starts to question if risking their friendship is the answer to finding true love.
A cute and contemporary debut novel, BETWEEN FRIENDS faces one girl's struggle between the fine lines of friendship and love and the risk of opening up her heart to the possibility of forever. I got this book free on my Kindle and read it whilst I was on holiday. I found it to have a slow start and was pretty predictable all the way through. However the characters were good although the situations they were in wasn't always believable. The book was enjoyable overall even though in parts I found it difficult to read due to the plot being quite slow and feeling as though it took a while to get to the point. - Esjae xo
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At the beginning of the summer I decided to sign up for the 'Race for Life' in Cambridge after saying I was going to do it a few years ago. Then my Mum and Auntie said they were going to do it too. Originally I was going to run the 5 km but due to injuring my ankle two days before so I ended up walking it with them too.
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Whilst I was in Bournemouth during my first year of university I visited the arcade on the sea front quite regularly, during these visits I managed to win on the crane game quite a few times mainly TY cuddly toys. Although I would love to win a cuddle version of the Alien from Toy Story out of one of the crane games.
This badge doesn't have a very long or very interesting story to go with it, however I did learn ballet very briefly when I was very young. My Auntie Lisa is a ballet teacher so she gave me and my sister a few lessons when we were about 3 or years old.
Recently I had a 'run in' with a lad who though it was okay to post explicit photos of his ex girlfriend online as pay back for her cheating on him. I completely disagreed.
Regardless of the gender I feel that it is never okay to share something that is meant to be so personal and private and make it completely public and place it somewhere where it will be available forever and could potentially damage their future career. Plus both parties could regret it in the future but due to where it has been put in a moment of anger they aren't able to take it back.
The moral of this story is that if it is avoidable (which in theory it is) don't share these kind of photos however, people will and do so make sure it is with someone you can completely trust and that you are aware of the risks involved afterwards.
Tulisa Contostavlos is one of the most talented and high-profile recording artists working in the UK today. She has three platinum N-Dubz albums, four MOBO awards, a groundbreaking drama series, two documentaries, a MIND award and an X Factor judge's win under her belt. Not bad for a girl who's not yet twenty-five. But this is not just a tale of glittering success. Tulisa grew up on a tough London estate and left school with no qualifications as she struggled to cope with deep-seated emotional problems while caring for her mother alone. She has seen first hand what drugs, alcohol, gang culture and violent relationships can do to young people, but she has come through it all to become the confident, inspiring artist she is today. After taking her little muffins Little Mix to the winning spot of the X Factor at the end of 2011, and with her long-awaited solo album being released later this year, the future is bright for Tulisa. Told in her own words, this is her story.
As a fan of Tulisa I knew that I would enjoy this book before I started especially as I also enjoy reading autobiographies - was I disappointed? Not at all! The book completely lived up to its title right from the beginning. The writing style of the book is engaging which makes reading the book even more enjoyable for the reader.
After reading the autobiography I feel as though I have learnt a lot about Tulisa as a person alongside her career which is exactly what I hoped to get out of the autobiography before I started. The book really does give you a great insight into Tulisa's life both before she became famous and after she became famous which enables the reader to see how she uses her past experiences and how she works for her success.
I would recommend this book for anyone who is interested in Tulisa whether they dislike her, are a fan or are simply interested in her life as this book could really change their opinions of her and give them a greater understanding of her life away from the media and how they perceive her to be. Although there are some adult themes that run throughout the book which aren't obviously suitable to all ages.
The Rockstar's Daughter (The Treadwell Academy Novels) by Caitlyn Duffy
At the age of 15, Taylor Beauforte has only met her father twice in person. After all, he is the lead singer of a world-famous rock band, constantly on the cover of music magazines and giving interviews on MTV. He pays for Taylor to attend the Treadwell Academy, a prestigious boarding school in Massachusetts, and provides her mother with monthly checks to cover her basic needs, but has never made much of an effort to play an active part in Taylor’s life. Taylor's mom Dawn is the only family she has ever really known, and because of Dawn's hard-partying Hollywood lifestyle, studious Taylor is happiest on the other side of the country in Massachusetts with her nose buried in a book. When Taylor 's mom unexpectedly dies the summer before Taylor starts her junior year, she receives a crash course in fame. She has no choice but to join her father and his new family on their summer concert tour before she has even had a chance to mourn the loss of her mother. Life as the daughter of a rock star seems like it would be enviable, but Taylor can't figure her dad out. He seems like a supportive authority figure (even if he's kind of a fashion tragedy) , but she is collecting a growing pile of evidence that he's a liar and a cheat. Her stepmother, Jill, can’t seem to decide if she wants to treat Taylor like a girlfriend or a nuisance. Having had no time to grieve and say goodbye to her childhood before being thrust into the limelight, Taylor is suddenly finding herself in situations she could have never imagined before this summer. With no one else to turn to, Taylor falls head over heels in love with Jake, the teenage son of one of the band's touring groupies. Taylor has growing concerns about Jake's background and the suspicious relationship between his mom and her own father, but is desperate for something real in her life onto which she can build a future. When Jake offers Taylor an opportunity to join him on a whirlwind adventure and leave her problems with her father far behind, Taylor has to decide – should she carve out her own way in the world, or try to repair the relationship she has with her only living parent? Over the course of the summer with the band, Taylor learns the depths of her own strength, the difficulty of overcoming loss, and that the definition of family means much more than shared bloodlines.
This book is quite clearly targeted towards the female teen market however being at the higher end of that particular market I still enjoyed this book and feel that many young adults could potentially enjoy this book if they wanted a quick light read. Although that being said this book is ideal for the market it is targeted at.
It has all of the essential components for a modern day love story, so a great book for you to get lost in as a summer read or even if you want to remember the summer in the winter months! The book uses its characters to address real life issues very well and makes them remain realistic and also enables the reader to be able to empathise with the characters as the realism of the situations is portrayed within the books.
Not only does the book address some serious real life issues that a reader may experience themselves but also includes some light humour and romance.
I would really recommend this book particularly for teens who enjoy chick-lit.
Attempt two of 'The Minstrel Challenge' - this is what happens when me and Rachael (filming and pouring the minstrels) were really bored and had a packet of minstrels so came up with the minstrel challenge which I think was to see how many minstrels could be poured into my mouth
Attempt one of 'The Minstrel Challenge' - this is what happens when me and Rachael (filming and pouring the minstrels) were really bored and had a packet of minstrels so came up with the minstrel challenge which I think was to see how many minstrels could be poured into my mouth
William Fisher is on a mission to bring the total number of his sexual conquests up to 100. During the course of his quest he sleeps with a colleague, a colleague of a friend, a friend of a friend, a friend of a friend’s wife, the estate agent selling his flat, and several more besides. Everything is going, if not well, then at least according to plan … and then Fisher goes and ruins it all by falling for Girl 99. Girl 99 is a story about love, sex and the sticky area in between.
Before I started this book I was entirely sure if I was going to enjoy it, however I was very surprised. I loved this book! - The plot was written so well, it was believable funny and at points relatable I was drawn in right from the first page. All of the relationships, and friendships (Particularly between Fisher and his best friend El) were believable and made the book flow really well. I also found it refreshing to read from a man's point of view as it is normally written from a female's perspective. This book would make a great read for both male and female, ideal for a plane journey or on the beach. 5 out of 5 - Esjae xo
This was a great sequel to the first book but it would also make a great read for anyone who hasn't already read the first book.
The characters as in the first book were relatable and also very believable. The overall plot is well written and enjoyable to read particularly as you become very involved in the characters lives.
I would recommend this book for older teens and young adults due to the content - it would make a great read for the summer.
This was a nice easy read ideal for teenagers who do not read very much. Its the kind of book that you could quite happily read in one sitting as the plot flows so well.
The characters were engaging and fun, some people may also find them and the plot to be relatable. Although the plot was relatively predictable this didn't draw away from the enjoyment of the overall book.
After tonight I have definitely decided that I miss uni. Its not even 9pm and I'm already sat in bed because there is nothing else to do. Well I could do some of my assignment that isn't due until September, but I have the whole summer to do it (famous last words).
I found this toaster earlier and thought it was pretty awesome:
See what my life is coming too?! Although I wouldn't mind having one of these for next year as I think it would be pretty cool.
I am on my last week of my work placement for uni and it has gone really well so far (touch wood) I've got to do loads of different things that I don't get to do in my regular part time job which has been pretty awesome.
I'm close to getting my deposit paid off for my uni house next year (in theory) although I still have a bit to go but I should have it all together by the deadline (fingers crossed).
I'm stuck in this nightmare
Struggling to act like I don't care
You got yourself into this mess
I wish I could pretend that I couldn't careless
I've tried helping you time and time again
But there's no helping you
It's not a question of if but when
It's almost like you can't help the things you do
Acting out like you have no clue
Especially about how much your hurting everyone around you
I wish you could see that what you're doing isn't right
And that you could appreciate why we've all put up such a fight
Your not only damaging yourself
Through ruining your health
But your making it hard to love you
When you do all the things you do
I wish there was something I could do to stop it all
You don't know what its like to watch you fall
Deeper into that blac khole that takes over all of you
I just wish you knew
What all of this does to me
And then maybe you would see
What its like living this life from my point of view
It's official! Me and Rachael have been reunited... it was a beautiful moment! Three weeks actually feel like forever...No word of a lie. Basically we have just done an all nighter to do our assignment that is due at 10am... I say we I mean me, Rach opted out of this assignment.
Back to the beginning of the day (now in fact yesterday). I had the worst nights sleep, my body wanted to be alive but my brain didn't want to be and they couldn't agree. It was truly devastating, especially at 9am when I finally decided to leave my bed and start doing things with the day.
I decided to go shopping. SURPRISE! (well not really but ya know!)
I got myself some new glasses (the drinking kind not the, oh look I'm blind type) as I have recently discovered I have broken one of mine and 2 have cracks in them, I also got two uber awesome blankets - a Toy Story one (yet another surprise) and a VW Camper Van one (my love for these beautiful beasts still lives on).
My day after my trip to the shops was slightly less productive, hence why I had to stay up all night to finish this assignment. See that is dedication for you!
Myself and Rachael had an uber awesome conversation with Katie-Jo who has yet grace us with her presence - she is longing out her Easter break, like really GET YO ASS BACK BIATCH.
I'm casually trying to kill time until I have to go into uni to print my assignment out and hand it in...
Sometimes it's hard to be surrounded in positivity
When all your feeling in your head is negativity
Its like when your life is moving so fast and all you want is for it to slow down
Longing for a little bit of simplicity
Just to create a safer place for your mentality
See some people spend all their time searching for money, fame and fortune
So when they have something good its almost as if they've become immune
Sometimes your the only one putting your life under attack
If that happens its time to take a step back,
Look at all the things you have in your life
And appreciate the people around you
Mother, brother, sister, father, husband, wife
They are all there to support you in the things you do
If you're losing faith in yourself
Look inside you for your inner wealth
Bournemouth definitely feels like home, I have been back here for more than 24 hours now and it feels ridiculously good to be here!
It took a while to unpack everything yesterday and get things sorted, I caught up with Ryan when I got back and Stefan was out. But there's only the 3 of us in our house at the moment! We have a new microwave which is pretty exciting! (the thrills of being a student)
Today I have had a pretty chilled out day, apart from the fact I woke up stupidly early as a result of still running on my work body clock, 7am is not the ideal time to be awake when you are a student! I made myself feel better about it by watching the latest Glee episode which was alright but lacking in songs.
I made the necessary trip to Iceland stopping in G&T's on the way to buy myself a new duvet cover, as you can see its a beautiful Toy Story one (my love for Toy Story will never end) plus its reversible.
I also went out and bought myself a monitor so that I can watch films and other things online while I do my work (or at least pretend to do my work). It has sort of increased my productivity levels, my assignment is now half way done - so close but yet so far!
Just because I'm female
Doesn't mean I believe everything ends just like a fairytale
I see the news each night
I hear the sirens attending another deadly fight
I might be nineteen
But that doesn't mean
I live up to the stereotype I'm believed to be
I'm my own person, I'm me
Look at me from the outside, tell me what do you see
I'm just another lost human being trying to follow my path in life
But yet somehow society is telling me I should be carrying a knife
I'm telling you that's not right, its definitely not me, and I don't want to take another's life
I want to stand up and show the world that we aren't all the same
You perceive us in our teens as though we all play at life as though its a game
But trust me, take it from me, we aren't all the same
You judge me because of the negativity you see on you TV screens
You see us as all the same, truth is, we only have one thing in common, we're in our teens
Don't judge me on what you see externally
Just because I have my hood up doesn't mean you have to look at me nervously
I promise you I was brought up with good manners, I'll say please and thank you
I might forget occasionally but trust me theres people older than me that don't do it at all
Your judging me on all this negativity
That you have created by looking at a small minority
Its about time that the bigger picture was taken into consideration
Because right now there is a whole population filled with alot of frustration
So don't judge me on what you think I should be
Don't judge me on what you think you should see
It's quite simple, just get to know me
There, I've said it! I can literally find anything to do to stop me from doing my work. Last night I had planned that today I would finish my assignment but somewhere between last night and this morning a part of me decided that wouldn't be happening.
I have had a very (un)productive day looking through photos, watching videos I've found on my laptop which I then proceeded to upload to youtube (you can have a gander here https://www.youtube.com/theofficialesjae - if you feel so inclined). I nearly finished the book I got on my Kindle last night but its hit that point where its not very interesting a bit boring so I'm avoiding reading when really I could just get this little bit over with and get to a more exciting part.
I also got a tattoo today... not a real one, a transfer, I'm too poor to get a real one right now.
It was a spongebob one that my Mum applied for me - doesn't it look wonderful!
I also lost four of my fingers today when my Dad decided he wanted to practice his refreshed first aider skills as he has just become requalified as a first aider.
I make a happy amputee.
Other than these events my day has been rather average. Oh yeah I also sort of packed to return to Bournemouth tomorrow, I can't wait! Although the four and a half hour train journey could shorten itself a little bit because sitting still for that long doesn't agree with me and I get ridiculously bored.
Maybe when I'm back in Bournemouth tomorrow I'll make more progress with my assignment.
So today has been one of those uber productive days when I have felt like I have completed so many things but really I have done nothing. Yes that's write I have ticked off a big fat zero of the many things filling my lovely non existent (that should really exist) to do list.
I got out of bed stupidly early because this mysterious headachy illness that has decided it wants a loving relationship with me (trust me it is not loving from this side) won't leave, I have tried to separate from it kindly by sleeping but I had to resort to some paracetamol today. The worst part, the paracetamol HASN'T worked! Well it did a little bit but not entirely.
I was so productive...
After refreshing facebook and twitter far too many times I decided to roll out of bed, quite literally as it stopped my head from hurting as much. I decided to attempt to get some sympathy from my mother and went to visit her in her bedroom although she wasn't as sympathetic as I had hoped with my visit at 8.30am (lets be honest, it really isn't all that early!!).
I contemplated going to back to bed but I debated with myself for a while about how I could start my day earlier and then get more of my assignment done... (theory is always so good, never really as good when put into practice). I went downstairs in search of Charlie (my laptop - yes I name these things!) and had the obligatory morning cuddle with Alfie (at least someone loves me and showed me some form of sympathy) I was so happy to see that the many people I subscribe to on YouTube had uploaded new videos which I happily watched and then settled on my daily Home and Away catch up (love that show). I then proceeded to watch This Morning got to love a bit of Holly Willoughby and the Schofield in the morning - I watch/ catch up on far too much television than what is good for you.
I have spent virtually all day reading http://thediaryofapoorgirl.blogspot.co.uk that blog is beautiful, she is so ridiculously funny. My Mum has been asking me all day what is so funny and I have told her if she had been sympathetic towards me and my unwanted relationship with my headache she may have been able to share my enjoyment but as she didn't offer me ANY sympathy I refused to tell her. I gave in eventually and she appreciated the post I was reading as much as I did - but that isn't the point it's the principle of it that matters!
My friend, Rachael, tagged me in this picture on facebook. I took it as a compliment - I embrace the crazy as much as possible.
I have consumed four Mars bars today (chocolate gives me headaches but seeing as I have one already I thought it would be okay). Mars bars are my favourite chocolate bars in the world quite literally well I haven't had every single chocolate bar (yet!) but if I had I'm sure that Mars bars would still top the list. They are just so amazing.
I do wonder how I have managed to stay so thin considering my diet consists of chocolate, biscuits, cakes, anything and everything high in sugar... possibly explains my craziness really.
All in all I have had a good day.
I am currently trying to bring myself to continue with my assignment discussing the ethics of Cadbury (see I managed to link my assignment to my sugar addiction!). As much as I love chocolate and particularly Cadbury (got to love a good Cadbury Caramel chocolate bar) writing a 2500 essay is not one of my strongest points. Yes I go to uni, but sadly I am not academic so I always find writing these assignments difficult and my attention doesn't last longer than a few hundred words. This usually ends in me doing my assignments in less than 24 hours the day before they are due. This assignment I am determined will be different.
Here goes. Bye blogger. Hello word and my lovely ethical assignment.
I only have until Saturday until I return back to Bournemouth from Cambridge and I'm currently recovering from some sort of bug that I got yesterday which meant I wasn't allowed to go to work.
So far my Easter holidays have been pretty crazy!
On the first night back I went to the pub with my Mum, Tasha and Debbie (my Auntie who I often refer to as Debster). That evening was filled with playing pool, dancing and singing to the jukebox. All in all it was a good evening.
Mum & Me
Me and Tasha
Me and Me
Me trying to get a picture of Me and Debster
Action shot of Mum playing pool
Another action shot of Mum playing pool
Tasha and her J2O
Sneaky shot of Mum
Sneaky shot of Debbie
Me :)
For Easter my Mum and Dad got us two eggs each, Alfie thought I would be sharing mine - which I didn't!
My parents went away for the first week of the holiday and so Tasha had bought loads of different food for us to have.
The first night was Chinese, as you can see Aaron was excited by this!
Chinese!
On my first proper day off from both uni and work I met up with some friends in town and we went to pizza hut, bowling and also did a little bit of karaoke.
Laura, Abi and Alexi's team dance.
Mel and Tom
Abi, Laura, Tom and Mel
Me, Tom and George
Fred, George and Tom
Me and George doing karaoke
Me and George - quick break from karaoke
The karaoke crew (minus George) - Fred, Alexi, Abi, Me and Tom
After work I have found myself to be very tired and have often crashed out on the sofa and a on a few nights Alfie has joined me:
As a result of working so much I decided to take my assignment with my to work and to go in early to get some of it done, thankfully it was a sunny day!
I also went to Nando's with Bethany on Thursday for lunch and we had a really good catch up.
It has actually been quite weird to be so busy during the holidays, I think part of the reason why I may have become ill was as a result of being so tired.
I'm looking forward to going back to Bournemouth on Saturday and getting back into my more chilled out life.
I may never come first And I'm used to coming last But none of that matters to me Because all I really want to see Is you becoming what you set out to be I want to see you smile And I mean more that once in a while I don't want to see anymore tears running down your cheeks Even if you're feeling really down and incredibly weak Trust me, I know, you're stronger than you think I'll do my best to support you with whatever you go through Because that's what I'm here to do That's quite simply, to be there for you.
I know when I don't belong That's why right now I'm contemplating getting gone I don't want to be here If you don't want me near I've always tried to do my best by you All I ever wanted was appreciation for the things I do
Instead you throw it back in my face Telling me that I don't belong in this place That I mean nothing to you and I'm just a waste of space
I don't need telling twice I've tried playing nice Even after you pushed me away I still tried to stay Maybe it was the wrong thing to do But all I wanted to was be there for you And in my head I just knew That you wouldn't be able to do it alone I've left, I've gone, but if you need me just pick up the phone It's not that I don't care You just made me feel like I didn't belong there
I hope one day you'll see That you'll always mean something to me
Well I haven't written anything on this blog since I actually moved in, what has happened since then.
EVERYTHING.
Quite literally, so much has happened. But at the same time it feels like not a lot has happened. Crazy really, just saying!
Well freshers has quite obviously ended and I have been chucked into the student world of being broke and having to amuse myself. I have learnt what my housemates are really like once you get to know them, first impressions aren't always right!
I have started writing this with no idea of where it is going, the main reason I have found myself back at this blog is because everyone in my house has gone to bed, at 11pm, on a Friday night!
So lets see what comes to mind from the first few months of uni and I'll see if I can find pictures & videos to illustrate the awesomeness of what has happened in my life as a student. (they probably won't be in order of when they happen)
So after we all moved in we had a roast dinner cooked by yours truly:
As you can see everyone looks really happy an not at all worried about the food they are about to consume!
We are obviously the most awesome students in the whole of Bournemouth and decided to 'bond' over a few games of Jenga as a result of the internet not working properly:
Again everyone looks extremely happy to be here (particularly Katie-Jo the one holding the Jenga block). The boys look slightly less enthusiastic about everything that is happening, the photo being taken, the fact the internet wasn't working, they had to speak to people, and the fact we were playing Jenga.
I tend to find myself having a lot of energy to burn (I guess I'm just one of those people who can entertain themselves with virtually anything):
This was known as 'the duvet of death' Katie-Jo has come to realise by now, I hope, that you tend to just go with my mood when I am this hyper. I have no idea where the whole idea for this came from but it sort of just happened.
On the same day I proceeded to go on holiday on the landing. Now the landing has come to be quite a special place not only have I 'gone on holiday' here but I have also made a dessert and became homeless here:
Me and Scott broke up. - That happened.
Katie-Jo fell through a chair, quite literally:
The concentration on her face as she tries to fix it is something else!
Sadly Katie-Jo seems to have become the person who is with me when I am trying to occupy myself:
Yes, I did tape her hands together. It's okay I let her go after...
It snowed:
Me, Ryan, Katie-Jo and Chris made a snowman and Ryan made the snow dog.
We went house hunting, Katie-Jo drove us to the viewings:
As you can see, I called shotgun, I'm not as stupid as I look.
The occasional sunny day:
I like this photo so I thought it illustrated that after it snowed we had a sunny day.
Me and Katie-Jo like to have adventures when we have had a drink, we dragged Dylan with us on this occasion.
We like to wear our onesies when we go out.
We kidnapped Claire, Dylan's girlfriend.
We met these two people (Lily and Liam - I think?!) and went to a houseparty for all of 5 minutes with them then went to the beach.
We paddled in the sea.
We made pancakes, twice...
This is Ryan. Ryan is eating a pancake.
I have travelled to and from Cambridge several times to visit my family.
Clearly I enjoyed this journey!
It was Rachael Day (NOT VALENTINE'S DAY)
I made her a cake. - Doesn't she look happy?!
Valentines Day (Rachael Day) meant more mischief:
Me and Katie-Jo gatecrashed Dylan's date.
This is proof that I do cook things from scratch:
In fact, that day we had just been for a walk to the beach (we may or may not have taken a detour as a result of my excellent navigational skills) and I cooked me and Katie-Jo a roast dinner.
This was taken once we had arrived at the beach! It was sunny when we left the house, it wasn't as sunny when we reached the beach.
There are loads more pictures but I shall add these another time, it is tiring looking through photos. I need to sleep. For a long time. I am student - I am allowed to.
- Esjae xo
Ps I fall off things a lot:
*Please note we were all sober when this happened.*
